like a breath of fetid, well, breath

Have not written in a while. Hard to fit it in between rounds and crying jags. Am seriously questioning my career choice. Also, M is out of town and 4 days as single mom has just left me wasted. Or perhaps that's the gin. Missed Gabriel's doctor's appointment (ear recheck) today. There was chaos involved and much shuffling of papers, but I can't think now of exactly how that happened. Only that it did and I must cope with the fact that I am a callous heartless bitch who puts her career before her child. And by career I mean abuse that I pay for. Also, I lost my pager. Tomorrow should be fun.